Well, it is Wednesday....and after being 5 days late... I started. The first IUI attempt....unsuccessful. Very disheartened. Tired of the emotional rollercoaster. Just simply drained.
I have another appointment with Dr. Le tomorrow at 11:15 to start the whole process over again. This time with new fertility drugs because of the thin lining factor from using 100 mg Clomid last month.
The only thing that keeps me going right now is the light I know that will some day be at the end of the tunnel. The sweet blessing that I know that God will bless David and I with some day. I just pray that it is sooner rather than later.
Until then, I will do whatever it takes in order for that blessing to become a reality.
Can't wait to be a mama someday,
~K
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
The waiting game...
Well, David and I have been trying for a little blessing of our own for almost a year now. After many visits to the dr., procedures, tests, and bloodwork...we are currently playing the waiting game. The dreaded two week wait is something that hopeful moms dread each month... especially when it ends with the emotional low of realizing that it was another month of not having success.
I have learned a lot throughout this process as far as my relationship with GOD and learning to fully rely on him. God has brought many sweet women to me during this journey that have gone through similar experiences or have also struggled with infertility. It is such a comforting feeling to know that I have so many women/people praying for David and I during this emotional rollercoaster of a process.
2 weeks ago, on May 6th David and I had our first IUI done. It was my second month on clomid (100mg) and my body really responded to it this time (after not responding at all last month). I was able to mature 3 really great follicles which 2 were over 22mm in diameter. David also produced what Dr. Le said was "enough for 5 men" and had a total of 20.16 MILLION. (3-4 million is all that is needed for the procedure) My progesterone level this month was an amazing 54.1 compared to the 6.5 I had last month. However, my lining was only at a 4.5 on the day of my trigger shot. The Dr. said that he had not personally had a patient ever get pregnant with that thin of a lining, but that he was still hopeful.....
Many, many prayers later....here we are....waiting still. I am officially 3 days late starting my period and I have taken 2 pregnancy tests, both of which have said negative. David says he "has a good feeling" this month....and that makes me happy. Yet, I am trying my hardest not to let my hopes get up too much....just in case I am indeed not pregnant and have to deal with the emotions that entails. I have been cramping since Monday and that makes me nervous.
All I can do during the wait is pray that God made my body perfect for pregnancy and hope for a miracle. I am trying to focus on the positive and not let the anxiety or being nervous/scared consume me. I plan on calling the dr. in the morning if I still have not started....and we will see what he says about it all.
Here's to hoping.....
~K
I have learned a lot throughout this process as far as my relationship with GOD and learning to fully rely on him. God has brought many sweet women to me during this journey that have gone through similar experiences or have also struggled with infertility. It is such a comforting feeling to know that I have so many women/people praying for David and I during this emotional rollercoaster of a process.
2 weeks ago, on May 6th David and I had our first IUI done. It was my second month on clomid (100mg) and my body really responded to it this time (after not responding at all last month). I was able to mature 3 really great follicles which 2 were over 22mm in diameter. David also produced what Dr. Le said was "enough for 5 men" and had a total of 20.16 MILLION. (3-4 million is all that is needed for the procedure) My progesterone level this month was an amazing 54.1 compared to the 6.5 I had last month. However, my lining was only at a 4.5 on the day of my trigger shot. The Dr. said that he had not personally had a patient ever get pregnant with that thin of a lining, but that he was still hopeful.....
Many, many prayers later....here we are....waiting still. I am officially 3 days late starting my period and I have taken 2 pregnancy tests, both of which have said negative. David says he "has a good feeling" this month....and that makes me happy. Yet, I am trying my hardest not to let my hopes get up too much....just in case I am indeed not pregnant and have to deal with the emotions that entails. I have been cramping since Monday and that makes me nervous.
All I can do during the wait is pray that God made my body perfect for pregnancy and hope for a miracle. I am trying to focus on the positive and not let the anxiety or being nervous/scared consume me. I plan on calling the dr. in the morning if I still have not started....and we will see what he says about it all.
Here's to hoping.....
~K
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